Questions...

Well I don't think I should be blogging right now, because I still have one more write up to finish before I hit the sack, but why I am not doing that?? Why am I wasting my time writing a blog entry which I am sure not many will read... I really don't know... There are many things that we do but we don't know why we do them... and then there are things we know - we have to do! and no matter whether you want them or not you do them coz you ought to do them...well these are the things you do so that one day you might get to do what you *really* want to do... Sounds confusing, well the actual scenario is even more confusing...trust me - Quitting from my job some 18 months back was a risk that I had to take because I wanted to work on my documentary independently...

Independence like many other words is one really tricky word, you will never get to know what it *actually* means... everytime you want to get independent (or indie as they call it) you realize you have to buy your independence...and to buy it you have to earn and in order to earn you have to sell your independence... A vicious cycle I tell you... Is this really all worth it?? I don't know... but I am trying to find an answer...

I am still trying to figure out why I started writing this entry...and what were the thoughts that swarmed my mind when out of impulsion I just opened up the blog and just wrote down these lines...

Wish you all a very Happy Festive Season and a Super Duper New Year!

PS. I might try to come back and write a longer post soon...before this year ends...

एक मुट्ठी आसमान...और एक नॉन-कमर्शियल ब्रेक

यायावर की डायरी के पन्ने काफी वक़्त से खाली पड़े थे...कभी वक़्त नहीं था तो कभी हम नहीं थे...ग्वालियर से लौटे करीब एक हफ्ता होने को आया..और अचानक आज डिजीकैम देखा तो ये तस्वीर दिखी...जो वहाँ रहते हुए अपनी खिड़की के बाहर चहचहाती चिड़ियों की आवाज़ सुन कर खींची थी...
बड़े वक़्त के बाद धूप देखी थी...बड़े वक़्त के बाद सांझ के ढलते सूरज को देखा था और उसे देख कलाई पर बंधी घडी पर वक़्त देखने का ख्याल नहीं था...मन में ऐसा कुछ भी नहीं था जो कहने का मन था...बस कुछ देर वहीँ खड़े रह कर चिड़ियों को चहचहाते देखता रहा...आसमान रंग बदलता रहा और मैं एक अनजान शहर में हो कर भी इन चिर-परिचित नजारों में वो टटोलता रहा जो ना जाने कहाँ पीछे छूट गया है...आसमान की ऊंचाइयों को नापते सपनों के बीच अपरिचित सी परिचित ज़मीन पर थमें कदमों का ये नॉन-कमर्शियल ब्रेक भी सुकून दे जाता है कभी कभी...वरना तो हर कोई चाहता है एक मुट्ठी आसमान...

My interview in today's The New Indian Express

The New Indian Express ran a story-feature on our Documentary Chitrakatha. Click on the image for a better readable size.