Well I don't think I should be blogging right now, because I still have one more write up to finish before I hit the sack, but why I am not doing that?? Why am I wasting my time writing a blog entry which I am sure not many will read... I really don't know... There are many things that we do but we don't know why we do them... and then there are things we know - we have to do! and no matter whether you want them or not you do them coz you ought to do them...well these are the things you do so that one day you might get to do what you *really* want to do... Sounds confusing, well the actual scenario is even more confusing...trust me - Quitting from my job some 18 months back was a risk that I had to take because I wanted to work on my documentary independently...
Independence like many other words is one really tricky word, you will never get to know what it *actually* means... everytime you want to get independent (or indie as they call it) you realize you have to buy your independence...and to buy it you have to earn and in order to earn you have to sell your independence... A vicious cycle I tell you... Is this really all worth it?? I don't know... but I am trying to find an answer...
I am still trying to figure out why I started writing this entry...and what were the thoughts that swarmed my mind when out of impulsion I just opened up the blog and just wrote down these lines...
Wish you all a very Happy Festive Season and a Super Duper New Year!
PS. I might try to come back and write a longer post soon...before this year ends...
3 comments:
My Dear Sir,
Like everything in our life, Independence also comes out with a cost and that happens to be our Jobs, if we finally take a call on that. I tried it some time back and now i realised that with my commitments towards the family is enormous and hence i cannot be an Indie any longer.
Last week also we undertook a tour with regards to our project and that was on L.O.P only and that was worth the risk to take. Am saving up all my holidays for trips and tours like this. That can be the price for not being an Indie. Well, you made your decision and sticking on to it, am unable to do so.
I can understand why you wrote such a post. Sometimes, when we are involved in such a work which not many can appreciate the finer points, we feel dis-spirited. That has happened to me also some times (Even to a point where i had stopped blogging) and later on, started again. Sometimes, when we are physically so tired, this mental tiredness combines with that and makes a almost invincible combination against our strong will.
Times like these are really testing points. Either take off your mind from your regular activities and indulge in something which is radically different / get back to some place where you can enjoy for at least 2 days / spend some quality time friends.These are the ways in which i get off these weight from my heart. May be you can also try some of these. if they can work well for you, same can be for you as well.
However, you are the judge for state of mind. Be patient, as you are doing one of the greatest works in regards to the comics field. Times like these will come and knock your confidence, still don't give up. Remember, You are just a step or two away from making history.
As somebody said, "Tough times don't last long, only Tough men do". You are a bit like Hanuman, who do not knew his own strength. We are with you, always, in every step you take. Go, Alok, Go.
Alok, all the very best to you, in 2011. I hope you resolve your independence/dependence chakkar in the new year. And I look forward to seeing your documentary some time soon.
क्या आप वह कर पाये जो आप करना चाहते थे जिसके आपने अपना काम छोड़ा।
कृपया वर्ड वेरीफिकेशन हटा लें। यह न केवल मेरी उम्र के लोगों को तंग करता है पर लोगों को टिप्पणी करने से भी हतोत्साहित करता है। आप चाहें तो इसकी जगह कमेंट मॉडरेशन का विकल्प ले लें।
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